ECHOES OF SPIRITUALITY

I remember having strong feelings for someone; they were so overwhelming and powerful. I lacked the means to express and deal with the feelings I was experiencing. I thought I was the only one going through them. Fear took over; I was afraid of showing how I was feeling because opening meant showing a soft side, and I was afraid they would abandon me if I showed signs of weakness, so I kept my feelings hidden from both him and myself, hoping they'd see I was strong enough, but it wasn't enough. Imagine if a flower never opened its petals for fear of falling, unaware that falling to the ground marks the start of a new cycle of death and rebirth. In the end, I left him, and my heart still beats to the drums of his name. Months spent crying inside. Still holding that belief, never expressing pain. What was this?was born in the wild and learned to walk shortly after birth so that I could flee any approaching dangers? The truth is, even though he wasn't mine, I was missing him a...

Facing the past can be a challenging yet rewarding journey. Acknowledging past experiences allows us to learn and grow from them. Rather than burying memories, we should confront them to understand their impact on our lives. This process can lead to healing and ultimately lighten our emotional burden. Letting the past be the past can sometimes mean we neglect unresolved feelings. By addressing these feelings, we can move forward with clarity and strength. Embracing our history can empower us to create a brighter future. In doing so, we transform our past into a source of wisdom rather than pain. Living life on autopilot leads to unwanted outcomes. Instead, we should actively engage with our experiences, allowing them to guide us rather than define us. This intentional approach fosters resilience and encourages personal growth, enabling us to navigate life's challenges with newfound confidence. By embracing this mindset, we open ourselves to a world of possibilities wher...

Learning to say no has felt like a new toy in my little fingers. It has enabled me to establish boundaries and prioritize my own needs without feeling guilty. This newfound power has allowed me to focus on what is truly important to me. I frequently used my past as a shield, and I was completely unaware of this behavior and the belief system I had developed for myself.  I became very good at reading your emotions and mood, used acts of service as a means of winning your love, and for a very long time, your vibration was my high note. I believed I had become enamored with you. You see, in order to comprehend my origin, I had to travel into your sky. I was prepared to recall my path when I at last possessed the knowledge and wisdom. This is the way it is. How exciting! In order to help me remember myself, I made up characters to play with.  Each character embodied a piece of my journey, reflecting the myriad emotions and experiences that shaped me. As I delved deeper...

  discovered how to use a knife to lick love. I have permitted myself to carry and endure a great deal over the last 20 years of my life, which has led to uncertainty and fear. My emotions and body felt so strange and alien, like the depths of the ocean. In order to fit into spaces, I have abandoned and shrunk myself. I wasn't always conscious of this way of life because I had a belief and a system that enabled me to access the world around me. Prior to experiencing my first heartbreak,  which shattered my perceptions and forced me to confront the depths of my emotions. It was then that I realized the importance of embracing vulnerability, learning to stand tall in my truth, and recognizing that love, though often painful, could also be a profound source of strength and growth. This journey of self-discovery opened my eyes to the beauty in both joy and sorrow, teaching me that each experience contributes to the tapestry of who I am. As I navigated through the compl...

 Once I experienced the feelings of being looked at, not with love but rather with judgment, humiliation, embarrassment, and shame. And let me tell you, this feeling is more unsettling to live with than the thought of what others may be thinking about you.  I was so engrossed in the sensation that I assumed everything and everyone had it in for me. There were times when I wished I could teleport, gain invisibility superpowers, and even disappear, or that I could travel back in time and be the center of attention, or so I thought. They say it's difficult to recognize the truth when you only know what a lie is. Well, the embodiment of the truth. It attracts what you already are. I know we refer to this as mental health issues. Yes, in some ways, I would have agreed with you when you told me I was just another Truman victim. Who cares? Even those with whom you may share an experience are indifferent. Social anxiety was a cancer cell eating away at me slowly; you see, I manifested...

If you don't pay attention to detail, you might miss the gentle stillness of harmony. It's in the music's beat and her vocals. Her composure. It's just the drummer's turn. The strings on the guitar. They all work together, but each must give the other a chance. Allow each melody to shine. Stillness, where are you? How do I recognize you against the background of my noise? You call to me, but you are so unfamiliar, untouched, magical, and mystical that I long to be alone with you and feel your embrace. Teach me, oh wise one, teach me to immerse myself in the present. I want to be soaked into you. How do I unfold myself, like the flower petals in spring? I want to blossom in your glory, to experience the nothingness in the wholeness and stillness. Are you one with darkness?  How do I recognize you? For in me you are, yet I search for you without end. I long to embrace the shadows that dance around me, to feel the warmth of your presence illuminating the path ahead. Wi...