ECHOES OF SPIRITUALITY

I come from a place where you have two goals in life. The first is that you don't have much of a choice because you made your decision before entering this life. The other one is you awakening to the reality of the life you have been or are still living, and questions arise, and the burning desire to escape what is in front of you becomes your second life purpose. It starts with a name. The name you carry is a vibrant echo of your purpose and role in life, a role you don't remember asking to carry out, but everything about it makes sense. Then you realize that the people who gave you this name aren't even your soul's relatives. They are merely the ones who shaped your early experiences, guiding you toward your true path. As you journey through life, you discover that the essence of your identity is woven from the connections you forge and the choices you make, transcending the initial labels placed upon you. They are simply soul ties that remind you of your role. You th...

I remember having strong feelings for someone; they were so overwhelming and powerful. I lacked the means to express and deal with the feelings I was experiencing. I thought I was the only one going through them. Fear took over; I was afraid of showing how I was feeling because opening meant showing a soft side, and I was afraid they would abandon me if I showed signs of weakness, so I kept my feelings hidden from both him and myself, hoping they'd see I was strong enough, but it wasn't enough. Imagine if a flower never opened its petals for fear of falling, unaware that falling to the ground marks the start of a new cycle of death and rebirth. In the end, I left him, and my heart still beats to the drums of his name. Months spent crying inside. Still holding that belief, never expressing pain. What was this?was born in the wild and learned to walk shortly after birth so that I could flee any approaching dangers? The truth is, even though he wasn't mine, I was missing him a...

Facing the past can be a challenging yet rewarding journey. Acknowledging past experiences allows us to learn and grow from them. Rather than burying memories, we should confront them to understand their impact on our lives. This process can lead to healing and ultimately lighten our emotional burden. Letting the past be the past can sometimes mean we neglect unresolved feelings. By addressing these feelings, we can move forward with clarity and strength. Embracing our history can empower us to create a brighter future. In doing so, we transform our past into a source of wisdom rather than pain. Living life on autopilot leads to unwanted outcomes. Instead, we should actively engage with our experiences, allowing them to guide us rather than define us. This intentional approach fosters resilience and encourages personal growth, enabling us to navigate life's challenges with newfound confidence. By embracing this mindset, we open ourselves to a world of possibilities wher...

Learning to say no has felt like a new toy in my little fingers. It has enabled me to establish boundaries and prioritize my own needs without feeling guilty. This newfound power has allowed me to focus on what is truly important to me. I frequently used my past as a shield, and I was completely unaware of this behavior and the belief system I had developed for myself.  I became very good at reading your emotions and mood, used acts of service as a means of winning your love, and for a very long time, your vibration was my high note. I believed I had become enamored with you. You see, in order to comprehend my origin, I had to travel into your sky. I was prepared to recall my path when I at last possessed the knowledge and wisdom. This is the way it is. How exciting! In order to help me remember myself, I made up characters to play with.  Each character embodied a piece of my journey, reflecting the myriad emotions and experiences that shaped me. As I delved deeper...

  discovered how to use a knife to lick love. I have permitted myself to carry and endure a great deal over the last 20 years of my life, which has led to uncertainty and fear. My emotions and body felt so strange and alien, like the depths of the ocean. In order to fit into spaces, I have abandoned and shrunk myself. I wasn't always conscious of this way of life because I had a belief and a system that enabled me to access the world around me. Prior to experiencing my first heartbreak,  which shattered my perceptions and forced me to confront the depths of my emotions. It was then that I realized the importance of embracing vulnerability, learning to stand tall in my truth, and recognizing that love, though often painful, could also be a profound source of strength and growth. This journey of self-discovery opened my eyes to the beauty in both joy and sorrow, teaching me that each experience contributes to the tapestry of who I am. As I navigated through the compl...

 Once I experienced the feelings of being looked at, not with love but rather with judgment, humiliation, embarrassment, and shame. And let me tell you, this feeling is more unsettling to live with than the thought of what others may be thinking about you.  I was so engrossed in the sensation that I assumed everything and everyone had it in for me. There were times when I wished I could teleport, gain invisibility superpowers, and even disappear, or that I could travel back in time and be the center of attention, or so I thought. They say it's difficult to recognize the truth when you only know what a lie is. Well, the embodiment of the truth. It attracts what you already are. I know we refer to this as mental health issues. Yes, in some ways, I would have agreed with you when you told me I was just another Truman victim. Who cares? Even those with whom you may share an experience are indifferent. Social anxiety was a cancer cell eating away at me slowly; you see, I manifested...

If you don't pay attention to detail, you might miss the gentle stillness of harmony. It's in the music's beat and her vocals. Her composure. It's just the drummer's turn. The strings on the guitar. They all work together, but each must give the other a chance. Allow each melody to shine. Stillness, where are you? How do I recognize you against the background of my noise? You call to me, but you are so unfamiliar, untouched, magical, and mystical that I long to be alone with you and feel your embrace. Teach me, oh wise one, teach me to immerse myself in the present. I want to be soaked into you. How do I unfold myself, like the flower petals in spring? I want to blossom in your glory, to experience the nothingness in the wholeness and stillness. Are you one with darkness?  How do I recognize you? For in me you are, yet I search for you without end. I long to embrace the shadows that dance around me, to feel the warmth of your presence illuminating the path ahead. Wi...

**Performance Mask:** For over five years, I served as a sales representative in various locations such as malls, airports, and shopping centers. Throughout this period, one key mindset prevailed: I had to convince myself that I was happy and that it was a great day to earn money. From the moment I woke up until I went to bed, my thoughts were consumed by money and the next sale. While I considered myself a small-scale seller, I always aimed for consistency in my performance. My morning routine was quite simple: I would wake up, take a shower, apply my makeup, dress in my best attire, and spritz on some lovely perfume. As I gazed in the mirror, I reminded myself that today was a prime opportunity for generating income. My daily goal was to achieve at least R3000. If you’ve worked in sales, you understand that once you enter the store, it’s all about the hustle. Even while preparing for the day, you’re constantly on the lookout for potential customers. My experience in sales has taught ...

Do you ever think where desire is  conceived ? And when it's birth ?  Just like the sun the alignment of the desires are just the right amount of heat to keep you going ,the correct distance between  you and your desired outcome  And when you do birth your desire into physical form, you realize you don't know what you up again since this was an internal image once and honestly speaking you're not sure  uncertain what it would look like if you had to see it with your naked eye until you do see it and it's all make sense , like a distance memory like you've been there before only in a dream.  You see if I were describe what is desire desire is it distant memory a memory of a life lived before and now. So if to say soulmate signed contracts with their life partners before entering Earth who is  to say you don't sign I contract deal with your desires before coming to Earth that's this was always yours to achieve , you just forgot that it was yours and it b...

When I let go of what I am I became what I need  Too often we gave ourselves the the label in what we good at , great at even , we often use the phrase "it's just who I am "  Which is great , where if you had to sit with what you say or think is you , you might realise it's just one of the things you can do   You might be a great swimmer, singer songwriter, producer or director. It's like a muscle the more you use it and train it , the stronger and more pronounced it's become , yet still is not quite you ,Just one of the things you great at. The you that is you is like the inner eyes looking at you become what you think you are . Crazy right?   If you have ever lost control over your actions you know what it's feels like to just observe with no desire for control . Scary right? Being good or great at something isn't necessary who we are , think of it as an open window for greatness . Just like in life we acquire skills to communicate with each other ...

Emotional intelligence  I think emotional intelligence is part of dark psychology if that's even a thing. Imagine having the ability to manipulate, not only others but yourself as well , only  in order to figure out what's going on with the world around you and what it is that is needed in order to survive,more like supply and demand . Imagine having the ability to shape shift your spine,the internal space you must create, the energy you must master,the curiosity you must have  and the years of practice,not only to invade yourself but also have a silence glance of the emotional state of others,only to better arm yourself, to better navigate  the room as well. It's more than a tool ,more than a copying mechanism ,it's more than a superpower. Emotionally intelligence doesn't come with age, you can only be aware that you have emotions intelligence. Like a muscle it's only gets stronger bigger, juicier as you feed it.  well how you feed emotional intelligence you as...

Gods speed is steady unwavering, commitment, and determination  It's  a sure thing,clarity and certainty.  Watching my plant unfold is a moment of enlightenment, experiencing patience . A great teacher once said we we must learn to uncover what we already have for we already have all we will ever want. If you must seek  ,seek to uncover what's beyond the eyes of man. In other words don't look at what your neighbors plate has ,look at what is in front of you rather  within you ,for what is in front of you is nothing but truth waiting to be unfolded if you would just be curious enough to look. Nature the best teacher and healer you would ever find  Love and light 

postive self talk Imagine awaiting your test paper results as you sit in the classroom full of students awaiting for the results and  in this moment you like "please let me it be a A+. Repeating these words in this moment as if there was a magical wand that would switche whatever that's on the paper . Funny ,this is a recipe for disaster  I would often repeat kind words for myself thinking and believing that they should work like the speed of light for it was this mindset that held me back keeping me from becoming the word that I was programming . Imagine having all the words all the language to place the emotions  that you are experiencing for it is only with symbols , power and wisdom that things fully become alive .  instead of jumping I decided to learn how to steady  my head ,steady my neck learn to stabilize my spine learn to crawl learn take two steps then jump and to run.  We learn through patterns, patterns that we see all around us sym...

Into the world of wonder. unlearrning can feel a lot like sitting around the fire and looking at the sky under a full  moon and light of star's, where the imagination go's wild and free . Where you choose what you want to believe and make that your truth.there is no logic in unlearning,for to learn means apply logic and common sense in a world full of uncertainty with laws in place both  omniversal, and a construct of man's imagination of what is and what isn't. To unlearn ,is to unsubscribe to not being part of , it's feels like drowning or learning to swim with an upwards current. The only time we choose to unlearn is when we have learnt a new way of learning, and being. If you have to do and listen to what is being said ,you are learning and teaching. Fear of trusting the wild imagination or how deep you can understand  the world,and  that has been Gaven to you without the voice of the many . Lossing you the monkey brain  To find the great oneness...

Wow this is a lovely piece of land you must think, and yes it's is ! What do you do as a person who pleases people ? Well you learn to survive, by making yourself useful,to those in high places than you are .In doing so to stay alive and well gave yourself the meaning of your time . Where do you draw the line ? Is there a line ?  Is there ever a good time to people please? I am currently working on this land clearing it up in high hopes that when my time comes ,I will be ready. Honestly it's not easy to always do it from a place of love . When feelings of bitterness over crowds my mind , I think to myself this land owner is lucky enough to have someone so thoughtful as to make herself useful in this way . Matter of fact is the bitterness is the manifestation of anger towards the self for not living your true purpose because well I fell in love with make bad choices,so now I'm in love with people pleasing which would be a leader factor to why ,I don't know what it's ...